Today's ultrasound clearly shows my tendon is torn.
The inflexibility I experienced regarding my desire to share - a clash with some thoughts, beliefs that are valueless, happened weeks ago. Had I been aware then, I would have avoided this tear. I have no recollection of an incident which caused this injury, simply growing awareness through pain of some concern.
The experiences I am having without the use of my arm are amazing, however! Each moment I pause to reconsider how to achieve a task is presence. Each day my weaker left arm becomes more competent. I ask for help without shame, and accept assistance graciously, less-practiced traits I posses!
All this growth, whilst my tendon heals, my path to my desire is recalibrated, my ability to appreciate what another version of me would judge "painful disaster" AND fine-tuning my reception to more subtle signs.
I love playing in this Universe!
XJ